Life as Lou

Answers Come

  • June 27, 2010 8:22 pm

Our move is becoming really real. We are booking hotels. We are consulting with the moving company. We are discussing move out policies while wondering where we are on the waiting list for our new home in South Dakota. We are hoping that the new house is comfortable, and well designed, and adequate for the next few years so we don't have to move and move and move again. We are worrying over new schools and new doctors and how long it will take to find the ice cream aisle at the new commissary. We're putting a hitch on our car, as well as a bike rack. We are throwing things out, and setting aside treasures too precious to let the movers handle.

But mostly, we are saying goodbye.

I think it should be against military policy to let anyone stay a base this long. For the first time in many years, I have people who are truly dear to my heart, and leaving is not painless. I've moved many times in the past ten years, and it hasn't been this hard in a very long time. I am grateful. It is hard because I have been blessed with real friends.

I said goodbye to many friends last night at a crop. I said goodbye to another today. I hate saying goodbye, so I usually just say, "see you later," because if I actually use the words, "goodbye," I'll turn into a useless puddle of tears and embarrass myself. Lately when I cry, I can't stop. There are too many emotions vacillating within me to make any sense, so when the dam breaks, boy does it ever break!

I am overwhelmed, and excited and scared and happy. I have a million little details, and little worries, and all those littles add up.

One night I knelt down and poured them all out: "What if our house is icky? What if the kid's teachers are mean? What if they won't even let us register for school because our house isn't ready and we have no address? What if the people at church are unfriendly? What if I come across as an incompetent loser. . .and it's true? What if I have no friends? What if Chris gets deployment orders two seconds after we arrive?"

And the answer came, loud and clear: "Don't worry. I will put you to work."

That, right there, is proof that my Father in Heaven knows me. I need to serve a purpose, and I need to be busy. I need to have opportunities to help others, and to me, work is one of the greatest blessing we are given, especially when that work makes me stop focusing on myself. I can understand my value when I am given an opportunity to be an instrument in His hands.

"Don't worry. I will put you to work."

Thank You.

I will be fine.]]>

9 Comments

  1. Laura says:

    Goodbye sucks, I can’t argue that. “Hello!”, however, is the epitome of grace and promise, my friend. What day do you get to SD?

  2. Priya says:

    You will be fine. It is true. And we are here to offer virtual support. Moving is hard work, both mentally and physically. I’ve made four moves in 15 years,two of them international. Not a lot by any standards but enough to last a lifetime. I wish upon you courage and fortitude. You can do it. Take care of yourself. We mothers forget ourselves when we have to take care of others.

  3. Darlene S says:

    Amen! Military moves are tough. But faith in the Lord will make you strong. My brother just moved back yesterday from a deployment to England. It was wonderful to see him and all my neices and nephews, but now they are will be 14 hrs away on the East coast. But at least it wont be an ocean away. Everything will start to fall into place.

  4. Me says:

    Great post young lady. :) Trust in the Lord with all thy heart….

  5. Cathy Harper says:

    Goodbye is hard! New adventures and new friends await! Please let me know if I can do anything to help you on your new adventure!

  6. Jane says:

    I will be thinking of you all….sorry we are going to miss seeing you guys…we are going to be in SD July 16-22.

  7. I learned something today, my son’s first day of preschool. That every situation has the potential to bring great good, instead of just bad. Trying to remember that myself. Hope it helps!

  8. kendra says:

    i understand your anxiety. If you need any inside info on the schools and docs, just let me know, i would be glad to help. i have lived in the rapid area my entire life. and i know quite a bit in regards to the doctors in rapid. i am sure you have tricare, which they do have a very small clinic @ eafb, but, if you need any guidance, just shoot me an email.

  9. Jennifer says:

    Boy oh boy how I can relate! We just PCS’ed from Barksdale in LA to Robins in GA. Goodbyes are SO hard!

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